The last time I stepped into here was December?
And now it's May 2010.
I have graduated.
And I'm 20.
I'm doing a different thing from what I thought I won't be doing.
I lost quite a few friends.
Yet I gained quite a few friends.
Changed a new boyfriend.
Took of my P-plate.
Got over the past totally.
In the 'lost-phase' of my life.
So did this five months changed alot?
Yes it did.
Was out with Ben and Jeremy earlier on.
Just like any outing that we always have but we digg out the past.
I almost forgotten that I was a drum major once.
The feeling of it is totally gone.
I was in a three years r/s before? I didn;t even know how I survived through it.
We talked about the past. How I rejected the guy that end up tgt with my friend.
How I got tgt with my three yrs bf when he dated one of my used to be good friend.
How I advise the girl not to accept him when in the end I pull through a three years r/s.
How my clique was formed and who have entered and left.
I used to think that I'm mature enough for my age and is a good person.
hahaha the thought of it is funny.
The hospital became a joke of my life. It is also he turning point of my life.
It also determine where I stand right now in terms of study.
I kept asking myself if I regretted it.
I have happy moments and of course, sad moments.
I believe that I truly love him before and was so deeply hurt by it.
How I refused to let it go that causes everything to happen.
But if I haven't go through it, I doubt I will be who I am today.
I would still be ignorant, arrogant, not knowing how to treasure things around me.
Thats a bad thing! It leads me to dislike pple who took pple for granted.
So many things that i want to do right now.
Im curious about my future.
I have been thinking about the past.
I think I live in the pst because I have been constantl thinking about it everyday.
Bad bad bad.
Whats the point of being reminded if the past?
I will just missed out what I have now right?
I am glad that I am who I am now.
One day. I'm gonna be successful.
I promise myself that.
I am super sure that I am definitely stronger than a few years ago.