Come back one week later.

Cleaning the room is such a torture.
The more I clean it, the more messy it gets.
Have to decide what to throw and what not to.
To add on to the frustration, I realise that my upcoming week will be packed.
Birthday starts to pile up which I have yet to plan.
Tests are on its way coming which I have yet to start.
What the hell.
What a new year.
No time no time

I have one more hour to kill before going to the lesson that I detest.
Yes. Leadership.
BUT water tech still sucks big time.

Okay. I miss camera.
Taking photos and such.

Have been busy picking up pieces of shit in life. But I guess, it's going to be over.
I THINK.

My mummy was super happy for one reason: Her daughter finally willing to pick up a rag and start cleaning up the messy room of her. Yes. That is me. There's just so many things needed to be tidy up and chuck it away. Cleaning my room is a torture. I would rather crack the brain of mine on project.

To throw or not to throw?
That's the question I have to trouble about when comes to cleaning.
It's sucks.

It's a good time to think about the past though.
Surprisingly, I still kept all my diaries and photos and such.
I was reading and looking at it.
Days were so much easier, simpler and happy.
The love letters, letters, presents and photos all look as if it was just recently matters.
But, come to think of it, it was at least 2 years ago.
I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time.
Happy that I am still able to keep in contact with these people who love me.
Sad that I am not able to keep in contact with people that I wished to.
Can't have the best of both world right? ( someone told me this)

There is one significant person that I think of.
If not for you, my life would not have change at all.
If not for you, the word " independent" will never appears in my dictionary.
If not for you, I wouldn't know the meaning of family love.
If not for you, I would not get to know the importance of friends.
The past is what I used to detest.
However, I realize it was not the detest part that I was running away from.
I learnt it by the hard way.
Let the past be gone and embrace the present and future.
Here I am wishing you that your life will be good, for I will pray for you.
=)

I decided to use 30 minutes to blog.

I'm gonna say out all the things that I wanna tell my friends because I have no time to send a sms or meet up with them:


B8:
Nicholas: Surprise? You are the first one on my list and first one that came to my mind too. OMG, I seriously miss HongKong uh! Even miss the moment where you woke me up every single morning but I still refused to wake up. hahaha. Miss the time I stick close to you like a superglue because I don't know a single Cantonese word. Bimbo I know. See you on thurs aight? =) and do you want to re-new your contract with me?



Benn: You are next! My room mate! OH MY MOTHER. These words really got stuck in me for some time. Miss you like crazy can? I don't understand why can't we have the time to meet when we are in the same school? That is seriously weird. Miss the time we cam-whored in your condo toilet and me hiding in a guy cubicle while waiting for that stupid stranger to pee finish. Oh well. Thurs!


Jeremy: Since when you in B8? Lol joking. Anyway you and your karma uh! Anyway Im just joking. rmb, our 6% of love. That's pathetic! I miss DIM SUM BIG TIME! Stop looking at girls! haha but go after them uh! Forget about the FION or FIONA! Whatever it is yea. THURS!


Amanda: How's the air in sentosa? I hope you see loads of hunks. And must rmb to come back to us! If not one day we will declare war with your poly friends. Nahh.. I'm just joking. We are all GENTLE people. haha. Love you my dear.! Miss teasing you or being tease by you lah.


Suzanne: Ahh you must be busy doing assignments again or looking after those little monsters. Oh poor thing. But fret not.. I'm here to love you! And not forgetting to miss you. The sessions we had at your house swimming pool was AWESOME! I remember running around that jaccuzi pool of yours when the guy I like messaged me. That was so so long time ago. Let's have more!


Samantha: You You You. Busy with dance and boyfriend and church and dunno what else. Just remember to take care of yourself and come to us more often!


Charlene: This curly hair lady. You sucks! haha Welcome back to singapore! Sorry didn't have the chance to meet you up after your return but you are still missed by me! Sweet of me right? Don't worry lets meet up with that CHUA WEISIONG to drink. ( we still owe him right).


Lydia: Take care of yourself and join us more often. Seriously one year I only see you less than 5 times. What's more not as if we live countries apart. =)


Weisiong: ASSHOLE! My partner for quarreling, supper and everything. Sorry that I didn;t meet up or answer your calls recently. busy with projects. But BUT! soon soon okay.. Please take that BTT of yours. I wanna sit in your car! And stop cursing me to fail my TP! and I miss you! Clark quay!


Premm: Dear or dear! you are superly loved and missed by HONG ZHENHUI. You sucks but you rocks too.. STOP HURTING YOURSELF!! and kill that lecturer who gave you 50 pages. It's damn darn alot lah. Starbucks is waiting for us. Thanks for being there for me. =)


SUYIN: This GIRL! you are the love of my life. And I swear it upon my life. No one can replace you. You are the top top top of my LIFE LIST. Lol. Since the day people thought that we are lesbian, we are fated to be tgt. Oh so sweet of me right? I have to consume more packs of sugar just for you. Thanks for caring and concerning about me. No one can beat you for that. You have seend me through different stages of my life even the darkest one. Fret not. you wil continue to be MINE!


Eeyin: Girl. We meet like twice or thrice in a year. Busy girl ah! I miss you! Can we meet up soon?


Rachel: Ass... Cute girl lah. hahaha oh miss drinking with you. And dun get drunk.


Krys: Hey Bitch! The bitch and the slut. Within a year, we really had qte a few obstacles ah? But I'm glad that we pulled it through. Let's try to maintain it shall we? It's a good thing that we can get to know each other. LET"S THANKS SUYIN TGT! haha.. and I do know that we are suppose to meet up soon. Oh let's go back CC and study again. Though I dunno what's there for you to study. Maybe you bring your tuition kid go there? Lol and and and FISH & CO. It seems that we said it a year ago but still not done yet. hmmmm...


Kush: All the best in CD aight! take good care of yoursel! =). Miss your driving skills ah. and the prata house.

Clement: All the best in your sailing!

Joel: You must be enjoying your last phase of army! University is on its way haunting you! =) take care! Drinking and supper session with the rest will be coming soon! How about LK?

Yammy: Hey yo! Lunch Lunch Lunch! Soon okay!


Kua: My love oh my love. You took so good care of me in poly. Fret not I love you. Don't be overly too sad. Screw all those. and you can do it! For there are alot of people that hope you stay actually! So that I can always cycle to your house and cry in your house carpark with your shoulders lending to me. =) or even cycling to your house in the middle of the nights, pleading you to help me.


Zhilin: WIFEY! our marriage is such a funny one? ANgie the choice cake rocks! ahah and you rocks! Its been long we sit down and talk or go out. let's do it can? and i miss the period we cycle around my house area or staying at each other house. ALl those memories are so significant. And the ordering of 20 pieces of pizza drumlets is CRAZY. but only we will do it uh. Sad... So let's do it again.

Jamie: Don't think I forget about you.. I didn't. And I miss you .. Even though we are in the same school same course but the chance of seeing you is like 40%? and spending time with you is like totally impossible. I miss the malaysia trip we had and the staying over!

Brandon: You are the only asshole that i will call and will always be hahaha! ANyway thanks for asking me to die whenever you got the chance to but too bad I am still living in this cartoon life of me. Let's just hope it gets less drama lah! All the best in squash and please start saving your liver. I think I need to start a campaign for you that is called " Save the liver".

Keiths: Just dance. Is the only motto in your life right now I guess. haha do take care aight!

Eng Kee: Disturb and disturb only! haha but still your keyboard is fortunate to let me pour water on! hahaThanks for doting on me! and you sucks! hahaha let's meet upi often for supper! and im not a clubber!

Stanley: Happy being an army boy uh. You won't have the chance to read this. but love you!

Glady: uh uh uh! always say wanna meet but end up tsk tsk.. is either you or me will have things. Not fated uh!! But I still love you.. Love your fierceness! hahaha. My birthday coming, you should know what to do uh! haha and STOP clubbing so much la clubber.

Saihah: Our THURS date. hahaha. although got one extra guy tag along but oh well we need some bodyguard eh.. hahaha You are so so so so irritating to the max but you are pretty. No link right? NVM. =) ang mohs ah! or herold.

Samuel: I don't like your name! haha anyway, being the bodyguard for thurs not bad uh! Take care!

Adam & Joanne: Ah Ah Ah.. Stay as a sweet couple always okay! haha Adam stop your JIN LONG GE!

Hasri: stupid! Stop pinching me ah.. I know i too cute already.. but control! hahaha

Jacq: You are not being missed out. Instead you are being missed by me.. Oh damn why do we have to be so far apart. I miss all those concern that you give us and those little little things you do for me. Though the past contains some unhappiness but it strengthen our friendship. let's really meet up and my birthday is coming!

Shawnee: I think out of all the LRM seniors. I know you only lah! haha my french partner who suffer being the same team as me. LRM's projects are getting too much right?

Muthur/ Adrian: Hey Sorry that I have no chance to meet up with you. Working with you in Genki sushi last time was superb. The fun and all. How I wish it was still open.

CH: Thanks for helping me to do the logo. Let the past go and embrace the future! Nice knowing you!

Doo: Thanks for loving me so much! And doing all those little things for me. And being stupid is the most sweet sweet thing. haha. I miss you! Do take good care of yourself. =). You rock but you sucks too. haha. Sometiems I really wonder if your family run sugar production. because you never run out of it. Love you!

~~~Poohooo~~~
Anyway, this blog is pathetic.
For one reason: I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING.
Okay..
So Life sucks.
From last week FRI till this week WED.
Trust me. It's hell. I have days of continuous sleepless nights.
Nothing but just purely Festival & Event Mgt project.
You could literally see me being voiceless, coughing like mad and sneezing like nobody business.
AND. worse of all. I have to attend interview.
Yea. I screwed up STB's interview
BUT BUT BUT I did well for another one. Ohwell..
The bank officially suck up all my money.
Now I'm back to square one.
I'm really afraid of school.
It is really a torture.
Okay time for bed! Ciao.
Tomorrow shall be another post!